Day 75 – the ugliness of humanity

Day 75…
What I felt like saying….
The ugliness of humanity. 
I felt broken my whole life because as a child, adults have taken what was rightfully mine. They trampled upon my boundaries and snatched away my innocence (refer to day 74).
And I felt there was always something wrong with me.
I felt like God made me but accidentally I fell and broke. 
Like a porcelain doll, I was broken to pieces and was glued back hastily and sold to earth but I never felt whole.
I was always searching for something. After divorce, I was constantly “healing” myself with teachers of the world.
Until, one day, I realised that… 
I was not broken. I grew. I grew and grew. I became stronger and bolder. I outgrew what people expect of me. And I grew very fast. 
In every setback given, I grew and learn/unlearn. 
The broken pieces that seemed to be missing has always been there with me. I chose to hide them away, deep-seated within my spirit.
I was ashamed of what humanity can be. Ugly. (when one has been disfigured as a child in a very traumatic incidents, the world can be very bleak and ugly for them).
And the fact that I was a part of that ugly humanity. 
I knew then what I had to do.
I tore away this belief and perspective that I was broken. Though I’ve faced many ugly incidents that made me believe this way, I also created this “broken belief” about myself.
I went in, look upon the ugliness that I hid. I faced them. I healed them. It took many years. When I thought I have healed fully, in times of crisis, they popped up again. And I have to be courageous enough to go in and face the leftover shadows that still lurks within, over and over again until they became just a debris of the past. 
And the Universe has been kind to grant me a group of people that have been growing with me thru it all.
I cannot do this on my own. Sometimes, i need to do it alone but sometimes I need a village.
So I reached out.
If an introverted empath who is sensitive to the world can find her own tribe to help her heal, so can you.
In a world of 7 billion people, do you think that there is no one like us or even understand us? I believe there is. 
I believe that we may not be exact match but there is someone, a group, a tribe that were born to help us grow and be better people. And viceversa.
Love,
Lina.
P. S: Together, let’s awaken our world by being our most authentic, joyous, abundant, loving selves. 
It’s OK, if you don’t belong to the crowd. Belong to yourself is enough. You are ENOUGH.
Be the unique you and shine. You matter. 
We matter. The world need us in our colourful truths. Stand strong. Rise bold. 
Don’t matter if there is anyone with you or supporting you or the fact that you felt unwanted or rejected. 
You don’t need permission to be you. You are a life warrior. Have courage to do what feels right to you.
Stop hiding in the shadows. Stop concealing your imperfections. 
It’s OK if you have unhealed wounds. Resolute to learn/unlearn, grow and heal them. We are all works-in-progress. 
Your existence is important and it is powerful. There is a great purpose/s in you being alive. 
Remember that. 
I may not know you but if I did, I know, I will love you. Because no matter what we are, we each deserved to be loved, seen, heard and matter.
This is what I believe. This is my truth. I’m Honouring it by sharing and spreading my message. 
What is your truth? Get to know, explore. Then, Express and Share it. 
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