so be warned… 😉
Sometimes I “see” things -past, present and future. It started when I was very young.
I suppressed that gift to be “normal” and use all kinds of ways to block and hide it but it will popped up with other senses.
When I was doing “food critic” role, I felt the Chef/Cook/ or the people who were involved in the food preparations-current state of emotions, problems/challenges currently facing and sometimes their personal lives were shown to me like some kind of TV.
One of my Chef Friend kept “testing” me whenever he cooked me food. And so far, the answers are right.
I travel this year to seek answers-to heal this part of me that is blocking soulmate love and relationship. I did the healings but I’m hungry for more.
I thought the more I haven’t seen him (my soulmate/twin flame) manifested in reality, the more I have to go and find more Teachers to heal me and my barriers to love.
How did I know that? Thru out my journey in Bali-that is the big Aha moment. And then it ripples back to what I’ve learnt this year.
And it was to “open” the gifts and clear all blocks, barriers etc. in using them to serve others.
That’s the the conflict I have with my soul through out my life.
So in Bali, there were people who asked me questions about solutions to their challenges and future stuff.
Because I was aware of this gift and reawaken…. and embrace it fully as a part of me lovingly, I did answer them even though I still have my fears.
(Wanna know a SECRET? Come closer….
And as I answer more and more people, I felt better, fears lessen, visions are more clearer, I felt my “third eye” happy, and even people of high social standings especially in the Spiritual World (meaning spiritual masters) came to ask me, I did my best to answer them.
To me, if ever anyone (not necessarily fortune teller) tells you stuff like- You look unwell. Are you ok?
Everyday, everything can be “auto-suggested”… We ourselves, pick and choose what we want in our lives. We are co-creators. FYI.
It’s more than woo-woo. I understand.
I’m still a Muslim as my basic foundation. I’m more focus on being spiritual because I’m opening my heart, my mind and soul to learn about being more happy to life and solutions to my own life challenges. I don’t expect anyone to get this. It’s ok.
The people who really matters are the ones who love me unconditionally in spite of drastic changes I’m going through or experimenting on.
I was told many times that I’m an indigo child few years back. I went to find out what Indigo Child term means. And when it does not go well with my strong Islamic religious background and knowledge, I “deleted” it.
This year, I went to Warrior Camps and I met many spiritual soulmates there who confirmed that Indigo Child in me again. I embraced. I felt happier. Like a part of me lost, found and rejoin.
What does being an indigo child means for me? It just validate my “empath sensitivity and ways” and how I differ much from others.
Being a healer is complicated in my mind’s eye. There are millions of “dis-eases” and we, humans create them. For me, it’s too much.
Healer can have meanings. Can be different for different people.
But nevertheless, I started learning healing modalities since 1999. From Quranic to Louise Hay, EFT, Hawaian ho’oponopono, Theta Healing, and many more.