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To all the readers out there who are currently enjoying ketupats, lemangs and rendangs. Selamat Hari Raya.
As a few of you know that I’ve recently challenged myself to fast during the month of puasa alongside with my fellow muslim friends. Well, i did not quite make it til the end of the month.
I failed my challenge two days before Hari Raya. On the 28th day of the Ramadan month, I was offered a situation which I couldn’t refuse. A slice of Tiramisu. Yes, a FRIGGIN slice of Tiramisu and it was ONLY two hours before breaking fast. It was the cause of both my misery and slight joy. Imagine how devastated I felt. The feeling was like halfway through on the final level of Super Mario Bros and then all of the sudden, the Gameboy battery decided to die and you’d never see the princess.
Obviously, I was disappointed at myself that I did not make it to the end of Ramadan month as it was just two days away but i’m still quite proud of myself for taking the initiative to fast and somehow made it to the 28th day. After that, I continued to fast normally for the next two days before Raya. I don’t know if I’m still eligible for them lemangs, rendangs and ketupats. I still haven’t had any of them yet.
I tell you, the last 1-2 hours of fasting day were the hardest. It wasn’t any easier when I had to wander around Ramadan Bazaars for pictures and food. The sight and smell of Ayam Perciks, Murtabaks and etc. made me salivate like Pavlov after a bell ring. However, the amazing thing was the food that I fall prey to did not affect other fellow Ramadan Bazaar shoppers who were there. How did I know? Well, they weren’t constantly licking their lips, swallowing back in their saliva and looking like zombies that just saw a group of fat and juicy warm blooded humans. Such will to resist temptations is definitely something to be admired.
Why did I fast?
The reason I fasted is the same reason why I was reluctant to fast in the first place. I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to resist from drinking and eating. By that, I knew I had to do it. Not being cliché, but I vowed to not let fear scare me from doing something. Rabindranath Tagore, a poet, once said,
“Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it. “
It’s a great quote.
It was my first time fasting. Previously I’ve never gone more than 3 hours without at least some snack or drink. Due to the sudden transition, my body had a hard time adjusting for the first few days. I lied down and played video games just to get by. Few days later, my body is more accustomed to not eating and drinking.
I usually have huge meals for sahur to bulk me up for the rest of the day. They are heavy on fiber and protein. For example, one of the many mornings, I ate 2 slices of toasted wheat bread, a couple of dates, oat meal, an assortment of berries, a handful of walnuts and banana with peanut butter for dessert. Sometimes, i’d go to mamak stalls for a typical Malaysian breakfast for a change. I eat as much during iftar.
Through fasting i was able to gain insights of Muslims who were fasting as well during Ramadan. I’ve definitely learnt a lot during Ramadan through meeting a lot of great individuals who shared their previous fasting experience with me.
I want to thank everyone for your support throughout Ramadan. Even though i didn’t really completed the challenge it was still a journey to be remembered. I’ll try it out again next year.
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